Today, im reaslised that i have good friends..
During sectionals, guess all the stress that built inside me, burst out.. especially the stress from some people..
Inside toilet burst out.. [baka baka!!] finally done decided to go out but there’s someone out there so waited awhile.. though malia and the auntie went off le.. but ended malia was still outside.. see her makes me cry even more.. hahaha! ok lah.. really thx that malia was there for me.. cant believe she actually heard me..
I guess this is the 2nd time i actually cried in front of my friends.. i always put up a strong front.. even in front of my family.. thinking that i shouldnt cry that much.. but sometimes other people’ shoulders are not bad too..

thx to malia! xpgby here..

ahhhh!! guys in all white clothes are really very shuai!! love them!! currently watching drama though tomorrow there’s band camp.. i lk guys who are tall and in white shirt and pants.. is so damn shuai!! currently i only remember ji hoon and joe cheng wore it before.. don’t know why am i so hua chi for these guys? because they are handsome.. what to do….. heee..

cant sleep le lah!~~~ xpgby here..

Realised holidays was super busy all the way..
I cannot believe i actually rotting my life till entre have not done yet..
Just wish me good luck k..
Maybe i shall go school earlier tomorrow to do..
Because afternoon i had sectionals..
Should i get my lappy out to do? i prefer this way..

I ended up didnt even open my mouth to ask..
Few days ago, i did actually have that thought before i sleep..
But yet, realised that after one night sleep, i dont dare to ask..
Want to ask, but dont know how should i ask..
This way? that way?
What if ask already, that day become awakard?
I started to think a lot..
And ended up like now……….
*by, you are really stupid..*
I should have ask when i have the thought..
How? how? how?

dont tell me how to do bah.. ended up i have to depend on myself.. omg.. im really silly and crazy!! xpgby here..

What’s the difference between the two words?
No idea..
I feel both but yet i dont have both.. 

Why do others have that but not me?
I should be happy for them, yet at the same time im envious about it..
Sometimes if not in a good mood, it will be jealousy..

Dont complain so much in life..
Cause you will find that,
the more you complain,
the more you dont get it..
That’s what happening to me..

Dreams v Reality..

And today you treated me that way again..

you? xpgby here.. 

Can i be called xingyue?
i like that name alot alot!!!!
hahaha!
But i cant change..
maybe i shld call my kids that name..
HEY, people..
dont steal that name after seeing my post wor!!
copyrighted by b.y.!!

lamelame~ xpgby here..

ya.. just tell me im useless..
useless in everything i do..
maybe im not cut for anything..
studies, relations, etc..

just tell me im stupid..
doing things that i shouldnt do..
doing wrong things at the wrong time..
think of things at the wrong time..
speak things at wrong time..

just tell me im lost..
no idea where should i go..
no idea what path should i take?

just tell me you miss me..
as im waiting for such long time..
waiting for one sentence..
waiting for just THAT thing from you..

just tell me you love me too..
cause i lacking of love to love others..
i need to get out of my pit hole..
im being drowned by all the words from everyone.. 

just tell me….xpgby here..